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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

its time to face the truth
cause i'll never be with you=[

{ soulful writings by } ]]x[loving you hurts]x[ at
12:50 AM

I'm sorry for all the things I said

And for all the countless tears you shed

For all the pain I put you through

I never meant to be so cruel

For all those times I broke your heart

I'm so sorry for the times I drifted apart

For all the times I made you cry

I didn't mean to, I promise, it ain't no lie

If I ever broke your trust

If I made you feel that you're not loved

If you feel that I'm never there

Please believe me my love, I still care

If you feel that you're the last in my lin

eAnd that I don't give you enough of my time

I'm sorry, I know, I've made mistakes

And I know things may never be the same

But when I said you're the one, I meant it I swear

And so many times, I've tried to be there

But somehow, someway, I never get it right

And one way or another, we end up in a fight

Time and again I've tried to show

that you're the only one I want

But somehow, even if things work out right

The happiness never lasts for all time

You're not to blame and neither am I

Maybe we're not meant to be, you and I

Sometimes it takes more than love you see

To live happily together eternallyIt takes a lot of sacrifice

To believe one day, it'll workout just right

I'm willing to take that chance with you

Are you willing to do the same thing too

I don't want to let you go'

Cause you're the only one who makes me glow

Please sweetheart, just this time

Lets give our love, just one more try...

and it shall be the last chance=x

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12:45 AM

+___________+youwillowaxbemylittleprincess+___________+

When I'm with you

Eternity is a step away.

My love continues to grow

With each passing day

This treasure of love,

I cherish within my soul,

How much I love you...

You'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,

I've never felt before

With each touch of your hand,

I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,

Whenever we part,

Know I hold you dearly,

Deep inside my heart.

So these eight words,

I pray you hold true,

"Forever and ever,I will always love you."

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12:41 AM

*************** Monday, March 27, 2006

todae was a bad dae.xiaoj came up to confront n sae me.i cried lahh.was realli disappointed.she accuse me..when i actualli nvr do anythin at all...yupp.sigh..forget it lahh...sumhow i hope she'll understand me=[
sum f**kin ch**bye idiot asshole tag my blog sae what i n xiner dunno what...i shall sue her arrx.if i noe who that person is ,just beta watch out lo!humji ixit that person.dare to write nobody den dun dare write their own name.siao ehhx lahhs!!i ganpua dulan le lahh now.
xiner disappoint me alot lo.i walk away she dun even care.gosh so pissed off.deborah haf fights with me.i pinch her till got blood den she pull my hais,n make me fall unto the floor lahhs.wha now my arm is swollen lo...*painpain*
esther pass by me just now.when i was sittin outside class...den we are just lyk totally dunno each others.yupp...ermx...why wont she forgif me?she rather side others den me.its owax like this.sigh.nvmx...there's nth for us too....
joanna misses xiner...gosh,when wil the dae cum,when she actualli noes how to change.oh ya,yesterdae,she cried infront of me.gosh,sweetheart muz realli be upset.she treat janelle so good lahh.but she dunno how to appreciate her.stil do tis to her yesterdae.hmph...badbad...

cause its all over]=

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11:52 PM

im now waitin for my sweetheart to end her cca.hahas..she is so swit ehhx...ermx...hmmm...she tried to kiss me just now..stunned lah...hahas...
my mother came school just now...i have to spray dunno how much of spray..just to get my smoke smell out of me.hahas.went to smoke opposite sch..me,gera n xiner were smokin while others....nah...nothing..yupp...
todae in school...was kindly angry n discouraged...dunno why xiao like that treat me..think she heard sum wrong stuff from others...forget about it lahhs.....they are like all ignorin me...what did i do=[
think me n esther arrx...gonnna break frenship soon...or perhaps,shld i saer,is already break le?she mistaken me oso...gosh....think i realli veri suay this few daes..what to do ehhx...forget it.,.i have my sweet heart,im satisfied.
joanna yong misses yeo xiner...feelin lost without her...she's my everything=]

its alright if everydae my sweetheart brings me sadness,will have to trust in her...maybe in her heart,there's still other..perhaps she wont tel me.but its alright..at least,she trys her veri best to make me smile everydae,im already contented..i will ask for nothin den this=]

do xiner reali likes me?

i noe i shld nt doubt her.

but,im confused...

i feel like...

i dunno how...

i dun mean to brk her heart..

if i ever did lahh..

haiiss..at least sweetheart dun break my heart as much as how esther ye breaks mine.or shld i sae,im totally obsess for esther that time?well,forget it..its all the past...all i nid now..is my sweetheart=]

shout out:joanna lurve xiner=]

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12:45 AM

*************** Monday, March 20, 2006

yesterdae i noe a truth.a truth that is so scary.gosh.a truth that makes me live in fear.hahas.well,its alright..but den,haiiss..im confused..who shld i____ermx..forget it lo.well,its not save to write it here.

my another half muz realli be indeed veri sad..gosh..she is lyk...breakin down infront of me..sigh..sadness has completely filled her empty heart..all thanks to that gal which took her heart away n nv even mend it back.heartless gal..muz help my another half,yutin,no matter what..cannot see her sad..i was abt to break down with her just down..but,oh well,seems she's sad,i muz be strong enough to pull her thru her sadness...

to yutin,just rmb..i love you..u will owax be my best another half!!no one can replace u.i will help u thru those times..wen u have to suffer..to give up on her..i will pull u thru..i swear!!

i love you!!!

{ soulful writings by } ]]x[loving you hurts]x[ at
1:34 AM

i love you!!!

{ soulful writings by } ]]x[loving you hurts]x[ at
1:34 AM

i love you!!!

{ soulful writings by } ]]x[loving you hurts]x[ at
1:34 AM

*************** Thursday, March 16, 2006

another truth has been revealed..that in ur heart,there is sumone else.sigh..whats with all this breakin n tearin up other peoples heart?by those shockin news n nightmares?

another truth has been revealed,that break my heart into pieces once more..that makes me nvr even wants to trust in love again..sigh..

u came into my life once again,if onli,all this can stop as a dream for me n u.a dream that will nvr be destroy..but,as ive said,its a dream...after all,i noe i cant run aweay from reality.

im nt gonna sae how i feel,nt gonna sae how much my heart is breakin.n im nt gonna sae,how i feel towards u anymore.sigh...cuz,its all lies!!!

confusion in me..sigh..wat to do?i feel so hopeless,so tired of life...i dun have anyone i can trust anymore in life...no one will noe how i feel,no one=x

its a choice for both of us,

a choice we both have to made.

to let it go,

or to stay with it.

a choice,which neither of us,

would actually be happy with.

the truth starts to tear us up.

i will have to make a choice,

which i noe it wil hurts,

but i rather choose it now.

than to ever regret in th regret=[

i dun wann to love u anymore.sigh...

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11:55 PM

*************** Wednesday, March 15, 2006

a nightmares has finally been revealed out.a nightmares that causes everyone to be so tore apart.that causes everyone to be so broken...

the truth has finally been set free.our hopes and dreams are all dash...the truth is so hurtin.have been keepin al of us in the dark...

the world is happy without u.but,truth has been out.that causes all of us to be so shock.to be so hurt.torn into many shattered pieces.frens are all breakin down.frens are all so hurt.who would understand what ive been goin thru?gosh!!

didnt expect life to be in such a mess...everything is so confusin now..everything that changes the whole situation..changes all ard us...sigh..

sigh..wont u understand?ur choice for makin the decision,end up causin everyone to be so sad=[..

its all untold lies...untold lies!!!

i miss my sweet heart!!!

sigh,wont u be mine?

wont u be by my side?

wont u sae u love me too?

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9:30 PM

*************** Tuesday, March 14, 2006

its a nightmares for me.yes it is,sth that ive nvr expected that it would happen..
why is this nightmares huntin me so badly?i cant find a wae out.sigh....life is so unfair?why?
haiiss...the news finalle broke out to so many of us.its hurtin ...sth no one would wan to hear.esp for my kuku...i noe she's not ok..she is brave..sigh,if i were her,i wouldnt be able to accept the fact..sigh..
i have sum confusion in me nowadaes...life is so tiring.i need sum break from all this stuff...anyone out there..pls help me=[

if i cry,will u wipe my tears for me?
if im sad,wuld u comfort me?
if im hurt,wuld u heal the pain?
if im alone,wuld u be by my side?
if im lost in the darkness,wuld u be my light?
if im scare,wuld u hold me tight?
if i made a mistake,wuld u make it right?
if im weak,wuld u give me strength?
if i wan u,wuld u wan me too?

a word 'sorry' n u ended our story=[

its a mistake we;ve all made.
a mistake that break n tore everyone apart.
a mistake which no one wuld eva expected.
a mistake that causes everythin..
to be nvr the same again=[

its a sad path for us..
but stil,we have to choose.
we have to accept the fact..
a fact that need time..
for everyone to accept..
sth that tore us apart..
n sth that breaks us up=[

a lie which has been kept in the dark..
a lie which is breakin everyone's heart.
a lie which no one had eva expected.
and
a lie which leads everything to hatred.

i have a nightmares
which i have to be strong,
n to accept the fact.
a nightmares,that causes me,
to be so torn apart.
the choices u've made,
break everyone apart.
wont u understand?

untold lies___
which has been revealed=[

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8:01 PM

*************** Monday, March 13, 2006

11/03/06-a never ending story.for you and me.=]
yeah!!!its school holidaes now...but,i stil cum back to school for sum cip that i nid to do...but,wahahas...anywae,im in sch now..hahas..waitin for them to give me sum cip work to do..hahas...
will be havin band later..heard tt my instructor will nt be cumin..hahas..after band meetin xin er..than goin bugis with my sis..
nothin to write..im bored.hahas

sweet heart,i love you=]

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9:43 PM

*************** Tuesday, March 07, 2006

its been so lng since ive updated my blog...well...there's alot of things i wanna update..suffered kinda alot tis few daes..sigh...stil veri sad ehhx..but,shall keep it to myself..
saw esther just now at tm..sigh she has been veri angry with me fr the pass few daes..im seriously for what ive done..i dun have any intention or what..but sincerely,i wan u to forgive me=[
kuku likes darrion sigh!!!always wanted to cry..but i cant,
i wan my kuku to be happy..
shld i continue ykin herr?haiiss..she is my meifu..gosh..
tml is the 7mths i like esther...i cant forget herr=x

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2:50 AM

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